the lovelies.

4 in 1 family. i hope pingpong (temp-name) can get along with bobby and cookie. (:

i've tons of pictures/videos to upload, but too bad - lazy bug's attack.

beautiful day ended with a word - PISSED!

Passing time with a senseless entry.

Its a cold and lonely night tonight. The howling of the wind beating against my window panes, hmm..very eerie feeling. And i cant get to sleep despite knowing i have to get up early tomorrow. That sucks.

I just reformat-ed my lappy, saved a copy of images/musics yet partial of it gone due to disc being corrupted. fcuk! Anyway while i was sorting out my pictures folder, i saw..

ivan and me, 3 years plus r/s. yeb, he's the past but still, i miss him at times.

i remember the good and bad days, the sweetest and the bitterness.

if only..

alright shall not say much about it.

he's my old flame, present friend and mahjong kakis. (:

Okay, i aint gonna continue ranting. Sometimes, its really better not to talk too much. There's no trust between humans.

Goodnight. Theres still work tomorrow, and the day after next, and the day after next next, and the day after next next next and it never ends.

p/s: memories of our time together this way, they don’t go away

aint just black and white.

"In life, there's only black and white, good and bad. No grey, no man standing between good and bad. Of course i understand that no man is perfect, and every human being has their own pros and cons. But still, i feel there's only good and bad and nothing else in between."

I was browsing through my previous blog and I realised that my thinking/perception had changed, like totally.

Trust me there's grey, definitely. I shant go on saying Why. Or maybe i should say this ol' quote, for me to know ; for you to find out.

p/s: my life's colourful aint just black, white and grey.

random

Tuesday night, Martin and i went for dinner and we both went crazy. I love this boy! We've quite a bit of things in common, chatted from past to present. So glad to have known this friend. Late night mahjong session with Martin, Chewie+Yoshi and Daniel over at Yoshi's place. Martin the zebra, chauffeur for the day. (inside story. lol)
p/s: I exceptionally hate it when someone doesn't know his/her limit to stop, excessive irritability.

Yesterday night, I went over to Jia's place to sleepover despite knowing that she hadn't been home for days. Watched 野蛮奶奶大战戈师奶 - Wars of in-Laws II with mama-toh for awhile before she headed to master's place. Home alone watching dvd til 3am, then I was being chased to sleep by daddy ken and mama-toh when they reached home cos' I've gotta work today. I miss my soulmate badly and hopefully she's happily indulging with her life, no more jerks.

Love at first sight?

A question i pondered over for a very long time, a question i wish to hear the views from my readers.

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Or rather,

Have u ever had a love at first sight?

What was it that attracted he/she to you? Was it the appearance? The X-factor? The personality? Or just the figure?

Have you ever had this really intense feeling within you which makes you wanna know that guy/girl so damn much?

Would you try ways and means to get to know him/her? And what happens when you found him/her in friendster? Would you message him/her and start a conversation? What is its a girl that wants to know the guy, what would the guy think? What kinda impression would he have?

What do you call a girl who initiates making friends with guys? Brave and courageous? Or simply thick skinned and desperate?

Would you feel really heartbrokened or moody when you realised that he/her is attached?

Is this called love at first sight?

Well, i guess not. Its just a crush probably. And then you would start asking yourself, Do you believe in fate?

If theres fate between the both of you, then that's your destiny. Other than that, blame it on your bad luck, i reckon.

What would you do now that you've got his/her friendster link? Browse through and click the big red X? Or give him/her a message?

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More often than not, people have this feeling of love at first sight based on the other's appearance i guess. Its not practical because most of the time, he/she isnt really someone you wanna be with. So why love in the first place?

Actually i know i aint making any sense here, i cant really phrase out how i feel about this issue. Well, its just some food for thoughts. Dont read too much into it.

traumatised.

Upset, very.

A friend of mine passed away due to bike accident. He's the 3rd one who passed away within 9 freaking months this year. We were once so close. The fun art class, the gossips btw us about his best friend (someone whom i crushed on during sec sch). I'm totally traumatised over it.

It reminds me about my favourite boy, mingming. )':

BREAKDOWN, sobbing night.

p/s: rest in peace good friend. fcuking scanner just dont work when i wanna scan his pic. pissed.

dearest boy

Mingming, Happy 20th Birthday.
You've been missed! I hope you hear/know/receive the birthday song i've sang, the things i've said, the tears i've cried and the things i've burned. Will always remember you. (:


Neopet met into an accident again. 2 accident within a month, freaky.




Soulmate, get well soon.

p/s: i'm happy being the first person to add him a testimonial in his friendster and visit him at mandai in wee hours of the morning. (actual birthday day)

ツ

Just got home from k-boxing with natalie. We were supposed to meet JL and Eddie for chilling session but was cancelled. Anyway, tmrw will be meeting up with mr.gladwin. I haven't seen him like damn bloody long, i miss you man!

Well, I've actually decided to put away my studies first and continue earning some moolah so i'll be able to further my studies elsewhere and lessen my parents' burden. Economy crisis's getting from bad to worst, and the course i'm studying will leads me nowhere so shall put it all to pending mode.

My day ended pissed-fully with someone who has split personality.
So here's my rant for the day,

Fuck u. Screw u. Kick u. Slap u. Punch u. Hit u. Bang u. Pinch u. Twist u. Poke u. Hammer u. Bite u. Kill u. Whack u. Push u. Jump on u. Throw u. Pull u. Scold u. Pound on u.

Scream. Shout. Scratch head. Tangle hair. Blood shot eyes. Cry. Jumps around. Roll on bed. Left-right-left. Up-down hit the ground.

This is mental torture. But i feel much better now. :smiles:

p/s: i lost a great friend, lost and hopefully found soon.

life's fragile

I'm quite upset over an incident that happened on wednesday evening. While I was strolling with milo, I saw an old man lying on the ground motionlessly. I walked towards him, tried shaking him but he wasn't moving at all. Worried, I used the old man's handphone to dial 995 for an ambulance immediately. (i usually dont bring handphone while strolling doggy hence I used his phone which was next to him.)

There was commotion along the pathway, people was asking me what's wrong and prompted many unneccesary qns. Com'on, this ain't the most important thing at that point of time. I meant like can someone do cardiopulmonary resuscitation for him or something? By chance, there was a lady who helped him with it but that old man was still motionless. Sigh. Not long after, the ambulance came and the paramedic tried to revive him. I wasn't sure if he was unconscious or dead at that time.

Today, I saw a wake next to my block so I walked over and took a glance over at the picture, yes it was him, Mr So. I felt terribly emotional till I teared even though we were like total stranger. I felt we're fated bcos' it wasn't my schedule to stroll dog on wednesday but due to the weather (i thought it was going to rain), I brought milo down for a stroll. And that was why I saw him lying facing down the ground. How I wish that I had brought milo down earlier instead of dilly-dally at home, his life could had been saved. sigh.

Life's so fragile, I never felt this way before. A sudden urge, I want to find my maternal grandma, uncles, aunts, cousins. I had never seen them before, totally. All I knew was my maternal grandpa had passed away. Know what? Power of love results in shattered family. I don't blame mummy, if not for her, I'll not be in this world, or right here blogging. Still, I hope I'll at least know who my maternal family are.

Mind me for this long entry. I'm feeling kind of down, just wanna blog it out.

p/s: graceful parting.

ladies's night

I haven't been clubbing since ages ago. Excessive booze, endless partying from the night till dawn. Pretty awesome! It is probably one of the best moments. There's more to come~

p/s: i'm washing my hands off, hopeless.